Though You Slay Me….

I took last week off to get my oldest daughter ready for college and then take her.  I didn’t experience any great sadness as I was so excited for her.  However, this week, as I am starting to miss her, I think it is finally setting in…our family is forever changed.

Now that the school year is underway, I am back to subbing.  I so enjoy being with the kids, but I have to make sure it doesn’t interfere with my writing.  I know most good bloggers write ahead, but I have yet to develop that good habit.  I tend to write as I go, which causes me some issues.  Anyway, I hope to get back on track here.

On Monday, I saw a video that I can’t seem to shake, so I thought I would share it with you as it kind of represents where I have been these last few weeks.

I come, God, I come
I return to the Lord
The one who’s broken
The one who’s torn me apart
You struck down to bind me up
You say You do it all in love
That I might know You in Your suffering

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

My heart and flesh may fail
The earth below give way
But with my eyes, with my eyes I’ll see the Lord
Lifted high on that day
Behold, the Lamb that was slain
And I’ll know every tear was worth it all

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

Though tonight I’m crying out
Let this cup pass from me now
You’re still all that I need
You’re enough for me
You’re enough for me

Though You slay me
Yet I will praise You
Though You take from me
I will bless Your name
Though You ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

I said this video represents where I have been these last few weeks because I have been facing some tough battles.  God is doing a lot of fixing in me right now.  I usually complain because God likes to work slowly with me…not this time.  I guess you better be careful with your prayers. Anyway, I would love to say that I have faced all these challenges by praising God, but truthfully, there has been a lot of crying, whining, complaining, and even some shouting.  However, this song is an inspiration to me.  This is the kind of Christian I am striving to be.  When these tough times come, I want to skip all the crying, whining, and shouting, and just get to the praising.

Yes, these last few weeks have stunk.  Yes, I have fallen to temptations and not been obedient to the Lord.  However, I never let go.  No matter how angry I was, I knew that life without Christ as the center was not the life I wanted.  My mind went down that route.  What would happen if I just walked away?  Since God isn’t being faithful to me…..then I can be free to do what I want….right?  Thankfully, God took control of my mind and showed me what life would be like without him…hopeless.

This is what I want people to know.  Yes, I am a Christian.  Yes, I like to teach others about God.  But I am not perfect.  I fight temptations and the things of this world just like anyone else.  Most days I succeed.  Some days I fail.  When I fail or fall short it is usually because I haven’t been attentive to my relationship with God.  It is like a marriage and needs constant attention.  But just because I fail, does not mean I am not a Christian.  It means I am human.  The difference between me and the world (those who don’t believe in Christ) is that when I sin, when I go against the word of God, I come to Lord, repent (turn away from the sin) and seek and receive forgiveness from God.  I, hopefully, do not try to justify my sin, but rather admit it, confess it, and leave it.

I say all this because I don’t want us to let our mistakes, failures, and sin stop us from doing the work of the Lord or seeking a relationship with Him.  Jut because we whined and cried this time, does not mean we can’t become the kind of people who praise God in any storm.  Keep trying; keep striving; keep seeking God.

Today, take the time to think upon this song.  Where are you?  Are you one to praise God no matter what comes?  Are one who;can look down the road and see the good?  Are you one to shout and curse God when things go wrong?  Is your faith strong just as long as you are being blessed?  Or are you somewhere in between?

Know that no matter where you are, God can work in you; God can grow you; God can change you.  You just have to let Him.  Don’t let fear of failure, the opinions of others, or the criticism of the world, keep you from a life with Christ.  Yes, as Christians, we are all hypocrites at times.  We sometimes do things we don’t want to do-things we know go against the Word of God.  However, even the greats like Paul struggled with the very same issues.  If it didn’t stop Paul, why should it stop us?

  Romans 7:14-25 (NLT):

14 So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. 15 I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.

18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[d] I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.

21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart.23 But there is another power[e] within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? 25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.

Lord, open eyes and hearts today.  Help us to be more like Christ with a faith that in unshakable.  Let us earnestly say, “though you slay me, yet I will praise you!”  Let us not give up when the trials come, even if we don’t handle them with the grace and elegance we should.  Help us to keep striving to be more like you.  In Jesus’ precious name, I pray, AMEN!

Be Blessed and Be a Blessing,

Missy

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