I am in a season of growth. I know without a doubt God is working some things out in me and in my life. I may not like the process, but I am excited about the results. I am excited for the victories.
Victories, yes, victories. I don’t know about you, but I am a lot better at noticing my mistakes than my victories. I am the type that can get boggled down with self hate and disappointment if I am not careful and in a right relationship with God.
You see, I am not a perfect person. I am not the perfect Christian. The truth is I write about Christianity a lot better than I live it. I make mistakes. I say things in the heat of the moment. I get angry. I yell at my family. I don’t always give the respect to my husband that he deserves. Yes, I am a hypocrite at times. But, I think we all are to some degree. Even Paul.
Romans 7:15-20New Living Translation (NLT):
15 I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
Paul struggled with his flesh. We too will struggle with flesh. However, we have to keep trying.
Yesterday, God really made it clear that while I made some mistakes, I also had some victories.
Yesterday, I got frustrated with my daughter over a dentist appointment. I yelled. I said a word I shouldn’t have. Now, I could count the day as a failure. I know Satan certainly wanted me to as he tried to defeat me with thoughts of “see, what kind of Christian are you?” Well, the truth is I am a Christian who knows better but does not always live better. I am a work in progress. And then God reminded me of these small victories I had that day:
1. When I got angry and said something I shouldn’t of, I stopped myself, apologized, and left the situation before it could escalate. Victory!
2. I overcame temptation. I have been tempted to pick up a bad habit God rid me of four years ago. I squashed that temptation. Victory!
3. I again overcame a temptation to start (or actually pick up) an argument. I chose to remain silent and let God work on hearts some more. Victory!
4. I also overcame the temptation to confront someone about a wrong that was done to me. I gave it over to Jesus once again and asked Him to work on my heart and for the ability to let the blood of Christ wash over the situation. Victory!
5. I prayed. I prayed for every member of my church specifically and earnestly. Prayer is not my strong suit, especially intercessory prayer, but that is one thing God is working on. He is showing me the power and importance of prayer. Victory!
6. I chose Jesus. My life is crazy right now. I feel on the edge of a much needed breakdown. The circumstances in my life are feeling like anything but a blessing. It would be easy to say that this “God thing” doesn’t work and give up. But I chose Jesus. I chose to believe that even though I can’t see it, even though I don’t understand, I know God is working all this for my good and the good of my family. Victory!
So, Satan may think yesterday was a bad day for me; however, God and I both saw the victories. Praise the Lord!!!!
Today, look for the victories, both big and small. Praise Jesus for those victories and keep on following Jesus.